Where have you been?
For uninitiated, I went by Shout/DruggedMeat/Spazmatism or whatever else. People at this point assumed I left the fandom but the reality is I got horrifically burnt out and my health got severe.
I still got plenty of debts, but no current means of paying them. I also no longer have any regular/stable money source. I can't get a public job, physically disabled, but can't get on disability either. I have to return to art for income, and the repayment of old debts will have to be a long term goal beside trying to live.
I live in Seattle now. Everything is 10x more expensive. I'm stuck here for the time being. With no aspirations or goals in life anymore, I'm truly just wingin' this shit. Sorry.
Health getting worse?
To try and be brief, I have a Chiari I Malformation (part of brain herniating below skull) that's turning more and more symptomatic. Mine in particular also comes with reduced CSF flow, which is scary and pretty bad.
I also have VSS(Visual Snow Syndrome) so my vision is a problem often.